A Glimpse Into My Prophetic Journey

As I write this I do not have a title. I am just writing and am trusting by the end the title will be revealed. I know it has been some time since most of you saw my blog pop up in your news feed area....I have had a lot going on and well....a lot being put in...so I am not sure where to begin....

sighs, where do I begin? 

I began looking at some photos in albums of people and even some organizations that I had been a part of for close to 2 years and realize that what I thought was family really ended up not being family. I won't go into all the details of why I am not associated with these people or organizations  because that isn't where I want to put focus right now....but I do want to zero in on a few things from my time of association with them.

1. I connected and linked up with them because I needed healing in a safe environment from some things that I had just come out of...and God granted that healing to me...in fact He made me every bit whole during my time in association with these people and organization. So despite the "bridges burned" and the fact we no longer associate God still gets glory because I am still standing and this time I am standing stronger, taller and whole,so haa-haa devil your plan to discourage me through breaking the association failed....God still gets glory!

2. During this time of association I also discover as I look back that it was a time where I began to transition from flowing in one office in ministry to actually walking in the office I am called to and assigned to....Truth be told in that 2 years I flowed in 3 different offices and embraced the mantel God had been trying to give me for many years yet I failed to pick it up and wear it. But through 1 and 1/2 years of discipleship class I learned who I was in Christ as a whole woman of God and was able to pick up the mantel and walk in the office I am called and assigned to walk in. So I will take with me this and know with confidence this was the place my eyes were opened to my identity in Christ and I began to accept, embrace and walk in with complete confidence.

3. The third thing I want to point out about this season in my life with these associations I was given a full Biblical revelation on true submission to delegated authority. While up to this time, I had an idea of what submission to delegated authority was and walk in it, I didn't really walk in the fulness of submission. I walked in submission as long as I agreed with the authority figure.....it wasn't until I was placed here that God begin to reveal to me the deeper and Kingdom way of how to walk in submission to delegated authority and how to walk being UNDER-COVER! So again I am grateful for the time I was given with these associations. And I do not count the time a loss just because I am no longer in association with these. True submission to delegated authority isn't submitting when you agree with authority....that is just simply walking in agreement....TRUE SUBMISSION TO DELEGATED AUTHORITY IS WHEN YOU SUBMIT DURING THE TIME YOU DON'T AGREE AND KEEPING THE RIGHT HEART AND SPIRIT TOWARDS THE ONE IN AUTHORITY OVER YOU! 

I will get 100% transparent right now on this revelation I learned.....I had to go back during this lesson into my past and contact some people who at one time or another were placed as delegated authority over me and ask them to forgive me for not being in true submission. I had to not only repent to God but also had to seek out the forgiveness as I apologized to these individuals for my role in dishonoring them as God given authority in my life....Now you're probably wondering how I didn't honor them....well, 2 of the 5 people I had to go to happened to be former employers. I had to go to them and ask them to forgive me because they told me to do my job specific ways and I bucked up because I didn't agree with their way.... I tried to test the flexibility of the rules without breaking them if that makes sense....and the sad part is both these employers knew I claimed to be a christian...yet I did not fully reflect Christ to them because I chose to dishonor them through not submitting despite my agreement with their decision they wanted executed into motion by their employee (ME). 

The other 3 people, oooh that one was even worse...giggles...I had to go to a parent and ask them forgive me for not submitting to them growing up when God clearly placed them in my life as delegated authority....Talk about swallowing any pride you might have! Let me tell you this was NOT an easy task as it meant having to deal with some un-finished issues/wounds that had just been "band-aided" instead of dealt with properly so wholeness could come to that area in my life.....so that I could be who I had not yet become yet was destined to be! The last person I had to go to was a former spiritual leader I had to go and ask forgiveness from for not submitting in a biblical manner to them when they were placed as God given spiritual authority over me. So this lesson really wasn't just a revelation...it was also a plan of motion that had to be walked out in fulness so that the power of release could come into play....and become very real to me.

4. I guess I need to add a 4th thing I learned and had to walk out from this season on my prophetic journey...and that is I have learned the power of release.....I have always been good with forgiving and not holding a grudge or offense, however, I held on to the moment in time of being wronged so that I could say 'it won't happen again' thinking that this was a right concept....oooh how I was wrong...true forgiveness comes with releasing those who do you wrong as you forgive them....this doesn't mean you will just forget about what is done. But, it does mean you won't allow the wrong to cloud your perception of the person, or allow your heart to stop loving them. In a nut shell, the power of release allows you to be in right standing with God without bitterness and any ill feelings, emotions or motives towards the one who has done you wrong.....I can honestly say that since I learned the power of release that walk with forgiving others....my life has been free of offense an a wounded heart....yeah sure things have come my way to try and get me offended or wound my heart...

 However, I am quicker to recognize these arrows and call upon my God who is my shield so that I am protected and can keep a pure heart before God towards mankind....This lesson also came with having to go to 5 people or maybe it was 6 and write/speak to them telling the I released them from the wounds, hurts, false expectations I had placed on them, and much much more...that time would escape me from getting into right now...but I want you to now that a few of these people were not even aware of what they had done to me because I had never taken the time to go to them, I just went to God on the matter, but never dealt with them.....

So really what this power of release did for me was allowed me to release any and everything (including myself) from having any open doors that would stop unity from flowing between these people and myself. I had to release them so that I wasn't held in bondage....forgiveness sets people free, if not others at least it will set you free as you choose to activate the power of release in your life.....And FREE I AM because I choose to release!

 

5. Maybe just one more thing I have learned because this one is I believe the foundation that put the 4 above into my love....I knew what real perfect love was before these situations, however, I have been brought into a newer dimension of  love and become more aware of what the attributes of PERFECT LOVE are and how important perfect love is and how essential the Body of Christ needs this kind of love flowing from one to another at ALL times....despite the image, perception, race, gender, or any other things that could be an obstacle for this love to flow in, through and from! It is Perfect Love that brings unity....and as I have mentioned in previous blogs about PERFECT LOVE. The walking out of it isn't always easy but the more you do it, the more enjoyable it becomes! And the more enjoyable it becomes the more one it is going to begin to become a lifestyle rather then an option.....

Did looking at some of those pictures cause a vulnerability with-in my emotions and heart, sure, I'd be lying if I said no...and I don't lie.....but how I choose to respond to those emotions will determine if I am dictated by them or I have learned to govern them and walk out the very 5 points God had allowed me to learn during the course of my season with these people. 

I think the most vulnerability I get emotionally is when I think about two points...the first point: I was robbed and cut short of the time I was assigned there due to some situations beyond my control. And it does cause me to have to run to Abba Father and into His lap so that He can hold me and allow Himself to cover me in these times so that I don't get an offense, I don't become wounded or react out of emotion.....sighs....No place I'd rather be in that moment of vulnerability then in the arms of God! He knows how to bring peace, comfort and joy to those moments! 

The 2nd point where vulnerability arises with-in me as I look back and reflect upon my time in that association is how I grew in such a short time. I mean I had been places for years and I am sure I had grown, but something about these almost 2 years....and the growth that occurred with in me....I'm not boasting or going off what I think right now, I am going by what others have told me based on what they have seen in my life. I am also going by what prophetic words have been spoken that line up with my experience with these associations...so don't shoot this messenger down thinking I speak in pride, because I am not....because to be honest, I am not fully sure I see the growth....because I know how much I have to battle just to not "have a tantrum and act a fool".  And to be 100% honest, I know the many times in secret I have thrown a tantrum because I had given in to letting emotions dictate me...which caused me to have to run to Abba God and repent and make it right....and go back to walking this prophetic journey out His way....through the 5 things I mentioned here I learned during the time with these people and organization....and I use the word organization loosely so no one get offended....I guess the proper word would be place of establishment.....

I also in the last 3 months have been taken to a place where I have looked back into my prophetic journey and been reminded of where I come from and who has been major influences, mentors, leaders, support and factors in who I am today. I know that in the last month or so, I have had the opportunity to talk with some of those people in both great & short lengths but the common theme in conversations has been: 1. Me giving them honor for who they have been in my life and the role they had in me becoming who I am today. While thanking them for being led by God then for such a time as now! 

2. Them taking the time to tell me that even though some may not be active roles now they still from a distance have an insight into my life and have watched over months, years and decades the growth, transformation and maturity since when they first came into an encounter with me.  This really opened my eyes to see that some of these people (who I thought didn't) really did believe in me and see who I was before I had become. I have not fully arrived to where I should be, nor will I until I enter Heaven, but I do my best to become all that God has created me to be and to walk the best I can in the full calling and destiny He has planned/promised me!

We all have a promise that is leading us in this prophetic journey....what is your promise and will you seek God so that He can lead you through this prophetic journey reaching and being able to take hold of that promise?

After all God didn't ask Abraham to lay Isaac (promised son) on the altar because God wanted to take away....He wanted to see if Abraham would prove he wanted God more more then he wanted Isaac.....

These lyrics simply express the above statement:

Abraham prayed for the day
God would give him a son
Blessed Isaac was his name
The greatest gift he’d ever known
Then came the day, who would have dreamed
God would say “Give him to me
On this mountain you will prove,
It’s you and Isaac, or it’s me and you”

Chorus: When I lay my Isaac down
Broken heart but my Fathers proud  

On this altar here he lays
Just to find it wasn’t him he/(God) wanted me

Most of us I’d dare to say
Have an Isaac in God’s way
On the Altar God will prove
It’s not your Isaac that he wants
He wants you 

Chorus: When I lay my Isaac down
Broken heart but my Fathers proud  

On this altar here he lays
Just to find it wasn’t him he/(God) wanted me

On this altar here he lays
Just to find it wasn’t him he/(God) wanted me

I do not have time right now to develop the revelation God gave me on Laying Your Isaac on the Altar right now, but I have mentioned it in previous blogs....I will release it soon...but in God's timing.....so stay tuned....until then, may the words of this blog find a place in your heart so that you can become all that God wants you to become! It's not about us, that we are on this prophetic journey, its about getting through so we can lead others out of their Egypt and into the promise land that awaits them!

And remember:

The Journey of Love

Just when I think I have mastered loving people, God calls me to walk, learn and go deeper in the area of Love. It’s a stretching proccess but one I am willing to go. He never promised it to be easy, He never said there wouldn’t be trials or obsticles. In fact, I have had to pull knives out of my back several times from folks God told me to LOVE… I cant be responsible for what a person does with the love that I give, I am just responsible for demonstrating, activating and releasing this Love and trusting God to do with it at his will.
The journey to loving is far from over for me in fact, it just started on the right path about a year ago for me… Being in dead end relationships most my life caused me to have a “fuzzy image” of what REAL LOVE is all about. Yeah, sure I knew what real love was but other than experiencing this REAL LOVE from my Heavenly Father, I had yet experienced it here in “human form”. I have learned it is very hard for the average person to walk in this REAL LOVE because of many reasons…It isn’t until we open our hearts first to receive God and his love for us that we can begin to open our hearts to release or receive LOVE from people.
Everyone has a love language that they speak learning that language is a very important key in receiving and activating love in our lives. I have learned my love language may be way different than the one that I am to pour out my love to therefore, I must learn their love language so that I can see that my love is indeed being accepted/rejected and when love is being poured into my life (after all we all speak a different love language).
Now, note that I am talking about love in many forms, from God to us, from us to God, to us from others (friends) or from a spouse to a spouse. Yes, God wants us to love our friends, He even wants us to love our enemies…Imagine that, loving someone who “hates you”!
I believe that we all have this dark underestimation of ourselves. Sometimes it is masked as arrogance, overestimation, superiority, but underneath the brashness he problem is insecurity and only unqualified, unmerited, unconditional love can assuage it.
I also believe, the Lord does not look so much at the magnitude of anything we do as at the love with which we do it. If we accomplish what we can, His Majesty will see to it that we become able to do more each day. We must not begin by growing weary; but during the whole of this short life, which for any one of you may be shorter than you think, we must offer the Lord whatever interior and exterior sacrifice we are able to give Him, and His Majesty will unite it with that which He offered to the Father for us upon the Cross, so that it may have the value won for it by our will, even though our actions in themselves may be trivial.
I have learned along this journey that:
Love is an act of endless forgiveness.
If we want the advantages of love, then we must be willing to take the risks of love. And that requires vulnerability. Of course, we can refuse this path and trod another one devoid of openness. But the toll on such a road is extremely high.

It is wonderful how the exercise of one's will in a matter like this will eventuate in the correct emotions. Determining to wish that person's good; deliberately trying to do something loving for him; and praying for him - all this will some day bring about the emotion of love itself. But love, as the Bible interprets it, is an affair of the will, not necessarily of the emotions.
Our merriment must be of that kind (and it is, in fact, the merriest kind) which exists between people who have, from the outset, taken each other seriously - no flippancy, no superiority, no presumption. And our charity must be a real and costly love, with deep feeling for the sins in spite of which we love the sinner - no mere tolerance or indulgence which parodies love as flippancy parodies merriment.
Open your hearts to the love God instills... God loves you tenderly. What He gives you is not to be kept under lock and key but to be shared.
Faith tolerates a moderate love of ones fellow man no more than it tolerates a moderate love between God and man.
Instead of allowing yourself to be unhappy, just let your love grow as God wants it to grow. Seek goodness in others. Love more persons more... love them more impersonally, more unselfishly, without thought of return. The return, never fear, will take care of itself.
The way to love someone is to lightly run your finger over that person's soul until you find a crack, and then gently pour your love into that crack.
The proof that you love someone is not that you have warm affectionate feelings toward them. The proof is in your actions, your words and your sacrifice, your willingness to give the best of yourself and your willingness to get nothing in return.
Christianity is not about ideas but about deeds inspired by love.
Romantic love is blind to everything except what is lovable and lovely, but Christ's love sees us with terrible clarity and sees us whole. Christ's love so wishes our joy that it is ruthless against everything in us that diminishes our joy. The worst sentence Love can pass is that we behold the suffering which Love has endured for our sake, and that is also our acquittal. The justice and mercy of the judge are ultimately one.
There are many who want me to tell them of secret ways of becoming perfect and I can only tell them that the sole secret is a hearty love of God, and the only way of attaining that love is by loving. You learn to speak by speaking, to study by studying, to run by running, to work by working; and just so you learn to love God and man by loving. Begin as a mere apprentice and the very power of love will lead you on to become a master of the art
Love does not inquire into the character of the recipient but it asks what he needs. It does not love him because he is such-and-such a person but because he is there. In all this it is quite the opposite of natural love: it "does not seek its own". It does not perform the characteristic natural impulse of love and life. Therefore it is basically independent of the conduct of the other person; it is not conditional but absolute. It wants nothing for itself but only for others. Therefore it is also not vulnerable. It never 'reacts" but is always "spontaneous", emerging by its own strength - rather, from the power of God. Love is the real God-likeness of man for which he has been created. In so far as love is in man he really resembles God and shows himself to be the child of God.


*Originaly written back in April 2010 and posted on my facebook page.