It's 2012 and let me tell you I am glad that 2011 is over! Not for any reason other than, I am much closer to walking into the Ministry God has called me to then I was last year. You see, I could go into all the details of what I went through in 2011 but time would escape me so I will say this. The year of 2011 was very eye opening and a year of discovery for me in the area regarding my identity. I have always had an idea of who I was but it wasn't until 2011 that the revelation of who I was revealed to me and I began to walk knowing who I am as a child of God. This discovery also brought with it the revelation that I am equipped for all that I face here on earth despite how traumatic it may appear...because their is nothing to big for me to go through that is bigger then God who is leading me through it. You see for years I walked this journey called life having an idea of who I was but because I was trying to work for my identity I really hadn't discovered/taped into my identity. Bottom line you can never see your true identity if you are working for the identity. I can confidently say I KNOW WHO I AM...AND NO ONE WILL TELL ME DIFFERENT. Because I refuse to allow myself to be seared with a hot iron anymore. What does that mean you ask? It means this, I will not allow the enemy to keep me in a state of continual sin consciousness (a place of seeing me as a failure for mistakes I make when I have repented of them). You see, I no longer will be working for a victory but rather from a Victory! Its kind of like mathematics, if you remember you are given a problem like this 45 = b x t.
You are given the answer 45 and then have to solve the problem as you find the value of each letter symbol represented. b = 5 and t = 9... its the verse "work out your own salvation with fear and trembling before the Lord put into practice. :) We are given the final answer in Revelation....WE WIN, THOSE WHO ARE WRITTEN IN THE LAMBS BOOK OF LIFE WILL ENTER INTO HEAVEN. That is an example of 45....but we are left to put into play the components that make that happen, which would be the b = 5 and the t = 9. Same with situations we face, We as God's kids know we have the VICTORY in the situation...so rather than working towards the VICTORY (5 x 9= 45) why not reverse it and walk it out from 45 (VICTORY= 5 X 9) because as you do it this way, your faith is increased, your eyes are focused on the prize (VICTORY because its already obtained) and you won't loose your stamina or tenacity as you go through the situation....
I also realized that with-in me is a fighter. Not a fighter like a street thug who fights without purpose....but rather a warrior who stands armed for battle and isn't afraid to fight when the alarm is sounded. I have learned what causes to fight for and what causes to refrain from fighting for. I fight with purpose...I realize I have a heart for RESTORATION in the lives of those who are broke down, abused, abandoned, rejected, castaways, hurt, scorned and dying. I have finally seized my calling and allowed it to seize me with out fear and am walking in it ever since October 18th 2011 (consciously.) I am sure I have walked in it from time to time prior to that date but I wasn't aware that it was restoration ministry that I was walking in. I fully know that is the "vein" God has assigned me to and I am willing to flow in it at all cost.
I have discovered that truth isn't fought for nor is it defended...It is however, revealed or exposed. You see no where do I find in the Bible that Jesus defended the truth or fought for truth...so why are we Christians going around defending and fighting for truth? We are to be like Jesus and be examples of truth or expose truth to people to see. Truth will never be revealed through defense, nor will it be exposed through fighting....but truth will be revealed and exposed as it waits patiently for an opportunity to present itself and when it does present its self it does it in a gentle, sincere, humble and meek way. The sole purpose of exposing or revealing truth is 1. to bring freedom to those who are bound by lies and deceit. and 2. to illuminate an area of darkness so that it is no longer a dark area in one's life. Hence why there is a verse in the bible that says "I am the way the truth and the light..." which is said by Jesus....and then there is a verse that says "thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path." which can tie in the verse that says "your truths oh Lord have I hidden in my heart that I may not sin against you." as you can see in these verses there is a sole purpose in each one of for truth and how truth is in operation. However, because many people are found behaving according to the worlds system (defending truth) hence why we have a judicial system....how I flow (revealing truth) is often said to be nothing more than craziness or even rejected because it goes against what many have been taught even in churches across the globe. Yet if we really dive into the Word of God and find out what He is saying about truth and how it should be handled we see it is never defended....hence why John the Baptist was beheaded....Paul was beat, thrown in prison, and others are known as martyrs. They went about their God given assignments revealing and exposing truth, never defending it. The life of Paul is a fine example of revealing/exposing truth....I can't seem to find anywhere in his life did he defend truth....can you?
I have also learned that every person is called to do something different, I will reach folks that others can't while others will reach folks I can't. We are not called to everyone just a somebody. By somebody I mean a select group of people who are similar in life stories but my have different personalities than others. For example, I know some folks who are Pastors of a Biker Church and they truly are called, anointed and assigned to folks in the biker lifestyle. Where I also know a Pastor who is called to minister to the African American culture. If there were to be a "Pastor Swap" I wonder how effective they'd be in the others area of assignment? Do you now see what I mean by we are called to a somebody not everybody? So I have discovered as I sought God on where I fit in, He has been showing me my place in this world....my area known as the "somebodies" I am called to. Hence why last year God gave me the name for the Ministry He has called me to birth in due season. I am in the final stages of preparation time before the birth of this ministry.....and I am in aww, at how it's all coming together....GOD REALLY DOES USE THE "FOOLISH" TO CONFINE THE WISE" because if one were to hit the rewind button on my life's journey they'd be like "say what!!!!" when they seen some of the things I did but these very same "say what moments" were orchestrated by God for me to do or go through so that I could be equipped for such a time as this and for the ministry God has assigned to me, called me to and anointed me for. So while some will question, others will embrace, some will reject and others will accept me; I will NO longer let any of that phase me. I simply will go about my Daddy's business doing that which He tags me to do and leave the others in God's hands to deal with. :) Life is too short to be focused on the negative, I must focus on what I am equipped, assigned and anointed to do...because God believes in me and I live my life for Him and Him alone....If this makes me sound arrogant or haughty, that is not my intent. My only intent is to encourage others to begin to see who they are in Christ and begin to walk out the Will of God for their life knowing their identity in Christ as a Child of God who is more then what meets the eye when they look in the mirror while standing in the bathroom. See yourself as God sees you...and know that as a Child of God you are not working for righteousness but you were made righteous the day you got saved.
I look back at the events that took place for each of these personal discoveries I have encountered and think now, wow, for such a time as this...but ya'll know I wasn't saying that as I was walking through it. Giggle Giggles...so let me say this, I have learned that as I go through the tests, trials and storms in life, I have found that as I praise God in the midst of it all, I really do have more peace, joy, more stamina, more faith, more tenacity and more determination to endure then when I have walked through them not praising God...It was sung tonight at church this way and it sums this entire paragraph up perfectly;
SOMETHING AMAZING IS TAKING PLACE,
BECAUSE I WORSHIP,
ALL MY DREAMS TAKE FLIGHT,
ALL MY BATTLES BECOME DADDY'S FIGHT!
SO THE NEXT TIME YOU FACE SOMETHING CHALLENGING OR TRAUMATIC, LET YOUR WORSHIP BE THE TOOL/WEAPON TO SEE ACTIVATE YOUR FAITH SO THAT YOU CAN WALK VICTORIOUSLY THROUGH IT!
