Have you ever had a conversation with someone and when it was over you were left in a state of "Did we seriously just have that conversation? What was really said in all of that?" I did and I am still trying to process it! I don't know if I should have a bruised ego and take it as I was "rejected" or if should take it as "read between the lines and hear what isn't being said while I say what is coming from my lips" As fast as the conversation started is how fast it ended...and I think I said 2 words....so as you can see it was mostly a one sided conversation leaving me more puzzled than I was in the first place! lol
So I have decided to leave it in God's hands and let Him work it all out!
Well I made a startling discovery the other day while driving...I have been single for close to 6 months. The 6 month mark is Sept 14th for those who really must know. And in this time I have had a few opportunities to try and date and they never got off the ground to become anything more than an idea. I have been totally content being single and learning so much about myself. I also realized that many people mistake my kindness as flirting. All I have to say is if I was flirting or interesting in you I have guts to tell you! What ever has happened to treat people the way you want to be treated? I mean seriously kindness goes a long way... and when I have more than someone else I want to bless them with out making it evident that I have noticed them lacking and making it a huge deal that I have more than them. So I discreetly try to share with them in a manner that doesn't make them feel out of place. Oh well...perhaps one day folks will take time to really get to know me!
I am starting to look forward to my 30th Birthday, where as before (even just last week) I was dreading it! However I realize that 30 is going to be a new season, new adventure and I am starting to look forward to what it holds for me!
So for now I will end this thought...I am sure there is more I want to say but I must tend to the needs of the kids I am babysitting and feed them lunch!
