So you're probally asking what's new, what has been going on in my world? Well, I have indeed learned a few lessons in life. But as a wise mentor recently said "use judgement when posting blogs or things in cyber world." So after taking that wisdom in I am choosing to apply it and share these few thoughts with you from myself examination/detox process that is helping me become more like Christ.
I've learned so far this year that life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, title you hold, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have a lot of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that.
But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness and compassion. It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are not for what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life's about.
Don't get me wrong these lesson's weren't the easiest to learn..The journey I had to take to learn them was messy, long, desolate, barren and sometimes scary, but in the end I gained wisdom that I will forever cherish. And I have a trust in God that it will ALL work out (including my future)!
I am learning that the journey of where I once was and who I am now becoming is where my dancing in life has really been taking place!
funny how when I take the time to reach deep within to blog I find the creativity at it's finest.
Amazing Love How Great the Exchange
A lost young petal once was I,
A wondering soul seeking to fulfill,
The dream you desired for me to follow,
So I follow you daring to believe,
I return by your side,
With a new heart in hand,
It's like a bright fire dancing,
To the slow music turning.
My heart as smooth as ivory,
Hasn't turned to lonely, sulfur
Because I chose that day to,
give my heart to you,
In exchange you gave me Love,
Lord, I just want to say love you!
I learned that I was born with wings so I refuse to crawl through life any longer. I'm spreeding my wings and flying! And those who choose to try and clip my wings, well I will assume they aren't my friends and I will bid them a bitter sweet fairwell/goodbye.
I've learned to face my fears and as I do they no longer haunt me. I've learned to keep my head when all around me are loosing theirs and blaming it on me. I have learned to trust me when all men doubt me while they are making an allowance for their doubting. I've learned to wait while not being tired of waiting. I've learned what it's like to be lied to and about but not deal with the lies all the while they hate me I choose to not give into the hating. I've learned to turn the other cheek while not being vengful to those who do me harm. I've learned to meet triumph and disaster in the same manner (head held high). I've learned that I can bear to hear the truth spoken even if other's twist it with knives to make a trap for fools. I've learned to watch the things I have given my life for become broken, stomped on with worn out tools all because others have given up on their dreams. I have learned to talk amongst the crowd while keeping my virtue. I've learned to guard my heart so that neither foes nor friends can hurt me.
okay so while writing this I had to stop because strange noises were coming from down the hall..while investigating it I discovered the roomies caged critter was the guilty noise maker....however that wasn't what the noises sounded like...so as my heart rate lowers and I focus back to blogging I just want to say that this past year has been a very unique experience but yet one that has had much impact and growth!
I learned that my turning point in this process of growing up was when I was able to discover my core strength within me that survives all hurt. I discovered that while some only have one strength, I have 3 that go hand in hand....but I won't be like sampson and tell you, I may wear wigs but I don't want a hair cut that bad! lol
I guess for me, the toughest lesson I had to learn this year, has been learning to grow while apart. There have been many folks that (for whatever reason) have left my side in this journey called life. I don't blame them, hold it against them, or even have ill feelings towards them. I simply have realized that like myself they need to grow and if the only way they can grow is to walk their path alone while I walk mine than so be it. I do believe that for some our paths will re-unite at the next cross road but for some the bitter sweet seperation was just that bitter sweet and I wish you all the success and happiness in your life. But as for me, I refused to become content thus I had to continue on my way to growing into who I am today.
And while I have been growing there have been some new folks that have come from the shadows to walk with me. Some who I question, others who I know are sincere, never-the-less I know I am not alone! No matter what the natural eye may see I know God is always with me!
So its nearly 4 am and I have been blogging for almost an hour if not longer and I need to head to bed, but as I do remember this.....
Everyone of us has lessons in life to learn...are you taking the time to learn them? Or are you so busy doing that you miss the wisdom that is learned by embracing the lesson and walking it out with the intent of applying it to your life to make you a better person....
"NO PERSON IS PERFECT, HENCE WHY THE MIRROR WAS INVENTED, EXAMINE YOUR FLAWS."
