So I should be sleeping by now but like I said my head is keeping the rest of me awake and no matter what I do, say, pray or try here I am plunking away at the keyboard on the laptop cuz I see no zzzzzz's in my near future...
So I will sit here and feel as if I am rambling about nothing when in fact I do have a lot to say...the question is are you listening, reading or hearing? I work with kids as most my readers know and they will say the funniest things and tend to catch you off guard...when you least expect it with what they say....for example tonight while giving my daughter a bath I stepped out of the bathroom to take a call from my dearest and most missed Amber. So Im sitting on my bed talking to Amber when I hear "I love my mommy, She loves me, but why Im sitting in the tub all alone I dont know, I love my mommy oh so much, she loves me but leaves me in the tub, My mommy I love and mommy loves me, but in the tub I sit alone..." I started cracking up laughing so hard because my daughter is 5 and she takes bathes all the time and sits for like 5-10 minutes alone in there playing while i start dinner or get a drink or change clothes from work..but tonight she was full of random humor and decided to sing a song about it....that's like the other day at the park, Saturday to be exact...she ended up being the only kid there..can you believe a park with only one kid in it on such nice warm wheather? I mean seriously...we spent 2 hours outside at that park and she was the only kid...well I played with her of course but I will only do so much time on swings...so I sat down to take a texting break and look up and she has six swings just a flying in the air..she is doing her best not to let any one of them stop swinging..when I ask her what she is doing..she laughs and says "Mommy, duh Im swinging my kids...see 1,2,3,4,5,6 kids they all want me to push them..." we laughed so hard...she never has a dull moment that is for sure! So yeah I enjoy every moment with my kid!
Ya know what I hate? not sleeping..I know so deep right..Well if I didnt have a this brain I'd be sleeping a very deep sleep right now...and for all those who want to know...I do not snore...I do however, toss and turn when I am in my bed alone...which reminds me..Amariah has been sleeping in her bed for 2 months straight now..she gives me no fuss, no fights, goes in and gets in bed...I am super dee dupper lee proud of her for this..its a huge ordeal..you have no idea! I sleep in my bed alone and she sleeps wild woman style in her bed....I get a pain free night and she sleeps great too! No waking up after like 30 minutes of sleep to a foot in my back, nose or head butted by her thrashing around in my bed like she owns it! lol I cant tell you how proud I am of her! She is blossoming into an amazing little girl..who is growing up so fast...Yes she has her sassy moments, but hello have you met her mom? lol giggle giggle...and yes she has her little head swirling, neck rolling moments too but again HELLO....have ya met her mom?? She however is a smart little whipper snapper too, but hey I am her mom and I am smart too....just not in the area of picking a man...DO NOT GO THERE....I SAID STOP...
Fine, I will go there for ya...I know my past guys were all jerks, scum and didnt deserve one minute of my time, yeah I know...I sure do know how to pick them...I pick them like I pick my nose...lol wow some of you just got a visual of me picking my nose...well then here see the green slimy booger? lol well that is about the flavor of what guys I have dated..lol slimmy...but that all is changing...yup yup Me and God had a serious talking the other day...and well He won! He got his point across LOUD AND CLEAR! and it was confirmed on a nightly walk with my friend E....who as we were talking (E and I not God and me) E made a comment and it was very ego blowing at first but I knew it was truth and well though I wanted to hit E dead in the face he is a lot taller so my fist would never meet his face less I stand on a step stool and since we were outside and no step stool was around, I refrained from hitting him..your welcome E since I know your reading this...lol No I really didnt want to hit him...or did I??? lol but the comment he made did hit home and began to get me searching my heart, mind and soul oh and spirit as to what I really want in a man....and that led me straight to God's arms where I began to talk to him on this issue...and pour out my heart...desires, wants, needs and all that lovely jazz in the area of what kind of guy I want to find me...and He reminded me of that...to stop looking....He told me to continue falling in love with him (again this is God talking not E) and as I do He will send my man to me...I must position myself in God so that my future husband can find me in God while pursuing for himself God....yeah I know deep..oooohhh oooohh..lol
Truth is, there is more that God revealed to me but guess what.....that's for me to know and you to watch me walk out! That's right I am leaving you hanging...ooooh what ya going do stop reading, yeah right, you are already addicted and love me so much you cant stay away! heee heee giggle giggle...All my readers by now know my silly giddy sense of humor by now so I wont even try and explain....
Which has me thinking again...Since the beginning of this year there have been drastic changes in me...and a lot of folks be seeing them and pointing them out....which is a bit much for me..but I'm learning to allow them to compliment me...These changes are of course all for the good and I a loving them like a folks be loving McDonald's! I personally don't like McDonald's but hey to each their own...
Wow its 2 am and my munchkin just woke up and asked me if I was still on my laptop...lol well guess I need to head off to dream land....but peter pan hasn't arrived yet to sprinkle me with tinkerbells fairy dust so I can fly...what-ever shall I do? I know hold his hand tight and don't let go...as we fly off to dream land....oh wait that was never never land...my bad, well perhaps the ninja will come and take me into dreamland.... yeah.... ninja...
oooh how this night ninja is so handsome and so dreamy, He is amazing... He has a lot of the qualities in him that I have been praying a man has....This ninja has an amazing heart for God, His passion for God is constantly taking him into a deeper walk with God...Ninja isn't fake, he isn't drama. Ninja is a breath of fresh air to me...I can take off the hair and be me around him..the me God designed me to be...no fears, no worries, no drama, no anything but the Me I am when I am not hiding or afraid to be seen...The me who is and was created by God....oh Ninja if only you knew how much you are an answer to prayers...I am so thankful God told us both the same night to get to know each other..and we are obeying...you make me smile sincerely with a sincere smile, because you see the real me...you see me for who I am, not what I do...you appreciate me for who I am not what I offer, you encourage me when I have my moments of drop kicking folks....and you inspire me to take things in my walk with God deeper...You inspire me to not give up on my dreams as I watch you pursue yours, You inspire me to be a better me and to love me better even if that means taking better care of me...and not neglecting myself for the sake of others....You are a God send and I hope I am Your Angel....God knew what he was doing when we became friends....and I am honored to be in your life....What I wrote on the back pages of the black bonded book of life I gave you...I meant them all!
okay enough...see I told you my mind never stops...but I must force it now too or you readers will be up along with me and that is by far to cruel to ask of you....
So till next time.....just keep swimming swimming swimming swimmming in life...don't let yourself drown or give up....
