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So I cleaned the bathroom, vaccuumed the house, straightened up our bedroom and even found time to clean out my little girl's closet so that all the clothes she has out grown or doesn't wear can be donated to a local shelter or pregnancy crisis center. There is no use hoarding them when others could use them who need them.
I just need to shower and get myself ready for work but I still have an hour! I managed to even get breakfast made, and my little girl dressed! Imagine that all done by noon and I woke up at 9:30 am! I hauled booty! I am proud of myself. I leave here at 1pm or around 1:30pm so I can run to the grocery store before work to buy some of the stuff I need for dinner tonight and then off to work! I am making a yummy dinner tonight cuz I am in the mood to cook! I pulled out the chicken, I will get the alfredo noodles and the salad stuff on my way to work, thank goodness I can store the salad stuff in the fridge at work til I get out!
My little girl goes to granny nanny's house tonight so I will be able to go through toys and start making room for the christmas gifts. I also will be able to sleep in tomorrow which will be nice for a change. She is excited she loves her sleep overs, she has fun and so does granny nanny! And it helps our relationship by letting us have our space...now don't get me wrong I miss her so much when she is gone, I find myself sleeping in her bed, watching her favorite cartoons, and even drinking out of her little cups, but I do appreciate the break. I went for so long with it being just us, never letting her out of my site and very few sleep overs because with out her I felt incomplete but now, I realize that we both have our own identities and if I live life through her I rob myself of many things and I put extra pressure on her and force her to live a life that may not be waht she wants.....Those who know me know what I mean....I won't even try to explain this paragraph. I just know that we both have fun while missing each other, but it works out!
I just need to take all the trash out now and the house will be in tip top shape when I get home from work. I love coming home to a clean picked up house....Just makes the relaxation period more enjoyable. Know what I mean?
Well for those of you who haven't found my rambling boring, I will begin the blog now! lol
My aunt gave me two books awhile back to read and I must confess I haven't even picked them up to start reading until today when I picked them up to flip through. And well I read a page and realized that I am having fun right now in life...I am drama free, stress free and able to laugh and have fun without being judged and looked at like I'm dumb! I love it....
Ever have a day, week, month or year where you just couldn't take one more small insignificant or even large irritation? I have and they all ended recently...but here's my story if your still reading. It started when I got a letter in the mail telling me I was behind on not one but 3 bills, I got word that my hours at work were being decreased due to the decrease in enrollment, my granny lost her job due to stupid people and their stupid mouth, my house work was piling up and it those who know me know I hate a dirty or cluttery house....so I was at my witts end... I realize there are bigger problems than these but they were wearing me down and the encouragement was decreasing rapidly that all would be better soon. I was becoming blah! I kept looking for some small little lift that would increase my faith, make me smile, even help me see the situation less hectic than it really was. But so far nothing. It wasn't til I decided to start going to the gym that I began to feel the weight of my "burdens" begin to lift..yeah I know some of you are saying did you give them to God...UH DUH I DID! But I didn't see any results with the natural eyes so it was hard to keep the faith. I am human!
I was thrown out of my game of working out when I got sick, I don't enjoy straining my body when it's already in pain and agony...So it was 8 days before I hit the gym again but I feel great. I went to church Sunday and some things took place that even made the weight on my shoulders intensify but I choose to keep my head held high and keep going....I went thursday for my photo shoot with my best friend and it was just what the doctor ordered to regain my joy and eliminate my frustration and irritation!
Speeding up to today 10/14/09 I have realized while in my quiet time with God and even my workout time that there are a lot of hurting people that are hurting in so many ways, Even those who have a deep abiding joy in the Lord can sometimes sag under the weight of all life's garbage. So whenever you see a moment to seize a smile across your face, don't take it forgranted and let it remind you that God does indeed care and love you. Let it be a reminder that despite what your facing God is indeed in control and that no matter what the situation is there is light at the end of the tunnel.....Because it is easier to pull yourself out of the pit than to stay in the pit....
Psalms 9:1-2
"I will praise you Oh Lord, with my whole heart, I will tell of your marvelous works, I will be glad and rejoice in You, I will sing praise to your name O most High"
Proverbs 15:13 read it!
Zephaniah 3:17 has been one of my favorite verses right now....
"The Lord your God in your midst The mighty One will save, He will rejoice over you with singing."
This verse reminds me of how awesome my God is and that Dady does indeed care about me and what I go through and that I need to give him praise despite what my flesh feels like doing because of what it sees or is experiencing...
Well for now I must end this blog, I need to get ready for my adventure in this big big world....lol
*chow*
