Relfections Under the Moon

I should be sleeping, but can't. I had an amazing weekend that involved going to an awesome leadership conference that was much needed! What was spoken really opened my eyes to a lot of things and helped me realize what I have been going through the last 2 years. It made me Selah and reflect on the dream seed that God put inside me years ago. I felt the dream come alive again after many years of thinking it was dead. I realized now that because of the commitment I have made to truly live for God that there will be more times of being "alone" than being amongst a crowd. I have been truly blessed to have a Pastor in my life who believes in me and is willing to help see this dream be birthed into reality in my life! I am blessed to know I have covering....something I haven't ever had......I have a safe haven as well. This weekend has left me with many mixed emotions and feelings (not in a natural sense but spiritual sense) that are all good! I was reassured on a lot of things...and I am more committed then ever to see the dream with-in be birthed!


I know I am able to pay the price and I have come to face the fact that there will be seasons where I walk alone (with out friends) and I am 110% now okay with this. I'd rather be fully committed and walk alone then to be half way committed and abort the dream with-in...I my not be on here as much anymore I'm making some major changes this week in my life and well, those who really KNOW me will understand why. Those who think they know me may ge offended but I have to do what I know is right....and that is using wisdom in who I connect to and get close to. Im not called to all just a few, and I have to follow the voice of God and the leading of who to get close to. Even Jesus was select and only had 12 close friends....

On a side note, I had a very strange dream during my nap today. I woke up rather disturbed from it....I don't know if I was more disturbed by who was in my dream or the fact that I said what I said in my dream. hmmm, giggle giggle, oh well glad it was just a dream. But, even though it was just a dream, in some strange way I know this dream means something but what???? Guess I go to the throne room to find out!
I have my nephew over, he is tucked away snug as a bug in Ami's room with her sleeping. They had a blast playing tonight. I enjoy having him over, just wish my child didn't get so "high strung" when he comes over, giggle giggle...
Well I guess I've said all I can say so good-night Facebook family.....perhaps now I can drift off to dream land and get some ZZZZZZZ's!

*Chow