Relfections Under the Moon

I should be sleeping, but can't. I had an amazing weekend that involved going to an awesome leadership conference that was much needed! What was spoken really opened my eyes to a lot of things and helped me realize what I have been going through the last 2 years. It made me Selah and reflect on the dream seed that God put inside me years ago. I felt the dream come alive again after many years of thinking it was dead. I realized now that because of the commitment I have made to truly live for God that there will be more times of being "alone" than being amongst a crowd. I have been truly blessed to have a Pastor in my life who believes in me and is willing to help see this dream be birthed into reality in my life! I am blessed to know I have covering....something I haven't ever had......I have a safe haven as well. This weekend has left me with many mixed emotions and feelings (not in a natural sense but spiritual sense) that are all good! I was reassured on a lot of things...and I am more committed then ever to see the dream with-in be birthed!


I know I am able to pay the price and I have come to face the fact that there will be seasons where I walk alone (with out friends) and I am 110% now okay with this. I'd rather be fully committed and walk alone then to be half way committed and abort the dream with-in...I my not be on here as much anymore I'm making some major changes this week in my life and well, those who really KNOW me will understand why. Those who think they know me may ge offended but I have to do what I know is right....and that is using wisdom in who I connect to and get close to. Im not called to all just a few, and I have to follow the voice of God and the leading of who to get close to. Even Jesus was select and only had 12 close friends....

On a side note, I had a very strange dream during my nap today. I woke up rather disturbed from it....I don't know if I was more disturbed by who was in my dream or the fact that I said what I said in my dream. hmmm, giggle giggle, oh well glad it was just a dream. But, even though it was just a dream, in some strange way I know this dream means something but what???? Guess I go to the throne room to find out!
I have my nephew over, he is tucked away snug as a bug in Ami's room with her sleeping. They had a blast playing tonight. I enjoy having him over, just wish my child didn't get so "high strung" when he comes over, giggle giggle...
Well I guess I've said all I can say so good-night Facebook family.....perhaps now I can drift off to dream land and get some ZZZZZZZ's!

*Chow

Princess's Throw Tantrums too Right!?

I was called condisending (or how every you spell it) I mean seriously me? I know I have a lot of experience because of all that I have been through. I have a lot of Bibical Revelation because of the length of my relationship with God but that doesn't mean I rub it in or show it all off. I mean ask anyone who really knows me and they will say I am the most humble person when it comes to my relationship with God and I don't throw my knowledge into the faces of those around me when it comes to things of God. I think it's mainly because to me my relationship with God is intimate and private...I am not ashamed of it just not going to go around shouting my intimate moments with God in detail with others. I am just beside myself tonight....guess I will go cry myself to sleep and put it in God's hands..but people are mean and suck royally...I can't stand folks who are insecure and have to prey on others to make themselves feel confident and strong...I just want to drop kick them and not in love. SERIOUSLY! I just want to swing my battle axe if I can't drop kick them!

Journey to the Throne 2

So in my time of prayer I heard God tell me to begin to look at some of the women in the Bible because there are some who I carry similar traits as they did. In my research, and looking into the lives of these women, I began to see just which ones God was wanting me specifically to look at. I spend most my morning investigating them and letting God speak to me as I read up on these 2 women. I realized that this year 2011 is a year that God is going to put me into position for full time ministry platform style but not in the way I had expected all these years. Not because I deserve this position, or because I am better than any other, but because I am chosen, called, appointed for such a time as this and because I have postured myself by paying the price at all cost. No I am not perfect, in fact this is a humbling honor that has me in a state of..... humility. I ask God why me and he responded "why not you?" I said okay God!

I realize that my passion to know God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit intimately has been part of the reason I have been chosen, now I don't mean to sound arrogant or conceded but I have paid a major price for this, right down to constantly having to battle defrimation of character because people judge me rather than let the Fruits of My life speak. They judge me based on hear say or false assumption of my behavior or what they think my behavior is saying.  

Lord, as I continue to seek out in these women what you want me to seek out show me, speak to me and let me become all that you desire me to be. I am ready to step into all that you have for me. I will pay the price at all cost.  I will do as you speak. I will no longer question or doubt or fear. I know your voice and I know you have me in the palm of your hand. I am in deed the apple of your eye! Thank you Lord for sending folks in my life to speak to me and help me stay on the path you have marked out for me before time began. I will seek you with all I am, all I have, all that I do. You are the one I long to please.--today marks a new begining in my life. I will follow. Refresh me as I walk this journey.

2010 Recap

Well folks it's that time of year when I realize that another 365 days have come to an end and I look back to see what God has brought me through. I realize this year 2010 has become one of the strangest years I have encountered yet.





January--a month of decisions



February--a month of being the "new kid"



March & April--months of good bye



May--a month of transition and relocating



June, July August--months of healing



September--month of focusing and self examination



October, Novemeber---months of revelation of self



December--a month of closure to a lot of people, situations with anticipation of a NEW BEGINNING come 2011!







While each month brought something new, I realize it also made me more aware of the gifts and treasures that lay inside me placed there by God. I realized my unique abilities and now know how to opperate in them.







Last night I was told that I walk in Mercy, extending it to others because I know what it really is to experience Mercy and few people really know how to do this. I was also told that I am different and that I have a healthy perspective on Love and know how to flow in it. I'm glad this was said over the phone b'cuz I was bawling like a baby when listening to this. Giggle Giggle, I have prayed for many days this year for many things and I have to admit, I am seeing the results of the prayers. Some of the answers, are being answered in a way I didnt expect but others prayers are being answered in just the way I did expect. God is always faithful to perform His Word! He really does know best!



There is more to this but for now I will end it, and just say that I am greatful for each phase I experienced this year and know that it has helped me be more like Christ and become the me he wants me to be!




*Chow

Journey to the Throne

I commited to a 21 day fast that started on Jan 1st and I am on the 4th day. Yesterday I struggled so hard to refrain from eating chocolate. Today the struggle is even more stronger because I am at my sisters house where food is everywhere! I mean the smell of it is delicious and I am salivating just from the smell! I am determined to discipline my flesh and resist eating though, I can do it! Philipians 4:13 is what I keep telling myself while thinking of the fact that fruits and veggies and water are my only food friends these days.  During this fast I have decided to write a daily prayer, journal entry so that I can later reflect on what occured during this process!

Day 1 Entry---Lord, help me to get focused during this fast. Help me to be able to settle myself and open my spirit, ears and heart to hear you when you speak. In Jesus Name-Amen

Day 2 Entry---Lord, I entered this fast out of obedience to the Man of God you placed in my life. I know you will honor me for it as I carry it out.
1. I believe you Lord for an open door in full time ministry with the bonus of paid salary this year
2. I believe you Lord for financial wholeness and helping me get a handle on my bills to get out of debt
3. I believe you Lord for the Man of God you have ordained for me to marry!
You desire me to bei n a platform ministry, its your will for me to be whole and married to the one you have set aside for me. 2011 is my year I believe this!
I believe strong holds will be broken, bondages broken, new wine skin given, a new me, The spirit in me will arise and be the one in control!

Day 3 Entry---Lord, I pray that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I pray that as I push away my plate and set time aside with you, I will hear your voice with out doubt, I will descern more accurately and that the fruits of the spirit will be developed to a new and deeper level in me!

Day 4 Entry---Lord, I thank you that I am able to come to you and you speak to me! I settle myself down to hear your voice, I am listening so Father speak to me! I desire to have intimate encounters with you that are deeper as we romance!

From Royal Princess to Royal Ass

Well, every great writer has a desk from which they write from, mine just happens to be the tabel at the local McDonald's. It doesn't really matter where the desk is as long as the writer has something to say of importance. Isn't that what every writer thinks, they have a voice and it must be heard? Well today I have a voice and I can't say it must be heard, but I'd like to think I want it heard. Leaving it up to the readers to hear it.  I know lately I've been quiet, haven't ventured in here to speak through the waves of cyber screens but I haven't been quiet. In fact I have shouted, yelled, cried and even started stomped my feet a few times since the last blog. I can't tell you how many tears have stained my pillow at night but I didn't come here to talk about that. I came here to discuss the inner workings of behavior changes that have been occuring lately with-in me. Society has become a self gratifying society who want it ALL in the moment of NOW! I have even become guilty of living this way from time to time. When I say self gratifying I don't mean sexually, all though for some they even turn to masterbation for a quick sexual fix instead of waiting for a partner. Or they turn to becoming so sexually addicted that they do anything and everything that has a hole or dick because they feel they just cant get enough!  But again that isn't where I want this blog to go. I was thinking more along the lines fo self gratification in the area of living.

Take the microwave for example, I recently lost mine due to the lovely fact it just quit working. I was with out for about 3 days and let me tell you, It was crazy, I didn't realize how reliant I had become on using the microwave to cook or warm up food. I had forgotten how a simple left over meal from the night before was to warm up via a push of a button for lunch the next day! Instead those 3 days I had to warm it up on the stove in a pot or in the oven. Seriously, it took longer and made more of a mess! Definitely, not set up for self gratification of a now experience using the stove!

   But, again that isn't what I am referring to as self gratification either. I am talking a bit more deeper than that. I am talking about how society has become so caught up in the "Make me Happy NOW" that they don't think of the long term effects of decisions or behavior they portray on a daily basis. Including me from time to time!  Yes, I the Not So Ordinary Princess, even has not so Royal Princess moments! I too can be a Royal Pain in the Ass rather than a Royal Princess at times, I am humble enough to admit it!

Let me see if I can use a situation I was made aware of recently to explain or show example of what I mean by living a life of now self gratification rather than living life selflessly.  I have been dating a guy now for about a month and a half, He is amazing, He is everything I have prayed for since I was a young girl, I really believe that God is answering my prayers and giving me the desire of my heart in this area. Shawn is his name, and he is so amazing for many ways. I could write a whole blog (perhaps another time) on just how and why he is amazing. Time will escape me on why, but the only draw back to this relationship is he lives 1300 miles away. Now folks this isn't an internet relationship. Shawn and I went to school back in 1995 (high school together) and I moved out of state after that so distance has become our opposing force right now. We depend on the phone and snail mail, texting and an occasional facebook message to communicate right now. He is planning on moving to my home state soon! But recently, Shawn has been working mad hours, 6 sometimes 7 days a week just to provide financially for himself and to take on the role to provide for me and my daughter 1300 miles away. When we first started talking  I have to admit it was nice to talk HOURS on end day and night via phone. I'm on medical leave right now due to foot injury so I sit home bored..lol He was in between jobs (construction) so we had no barriers stopping us from talking ALL day and ALL night!  But recently, Shawn has been working and a lot! Our conversations are shorter and not as often. I broke down last night and told him crying I wasn't happy about it. I know selfish right? I had gotten spoiled and addicted to what we had in the beginning and become self gratified by it. I had not taken into account that perhaps his schedule would change and we'd perhaps have to adjust to a new talking schedule. So many thoughts swarmed my head, past negative behaviors began to surface and be active in my life because of past sour relationships that I began to distance myself from Shawn unconsciously and it was effecting our relationship! I blew up his phone via texts to find out what was going on. I wanted a NOW answer, I wanted a NOW reason, I wanted a NOW Shawn. That was when, God stepped in and used Shawn to show me I was expecting self gratification from a situation that for now is gratification delayed due to the distance. I didn't take into account that Shawn is working hard to get his paycheck to pay bills, save money for the move, and to save money to help when he gets here. I was looking at it through selfish eyes because again  I Princess, wanted him NOW. 

How many other people have been guilty of wanting NOW when perhaps there is a process that is required that isn't denying gratification just delaying it for a bit?  I know I have been guilty of this many times and finally think this may be my down fall and my "wandering in the wilderness for 40 year moment". So now that perhaps the problem is revealed how do we solve it? Anyone, have any suggestions? hmmm, well, so far the only one I have come up with is:  Relinquish ALL control of your life in ALL areas to God. Don't just give Him the reigns and when things don't go the way you assume they should grab them back and dictate God and your life. I mean truly giving God the reigns and trusting that no matter what come hell or high water you will NOT take them back.  I know this is way easier said then done, in fact I am 30 years old and knew all this but hadn't been doing it. I found it easier to give God control of the areas I felt He was an expert at rather than giving him access to all areas. I made a decision back in March?April of this year to give him the area of my heart and life involving relationships. I went on a 6 month fast from dating and any type of relationship with guys. I learned so much about me it isn't even funny. I let God give me a make-over and remodel me in this area, which when October came it positioned me to be open to recieve Shawn when God placed him in my life. Yes it was choice I had to make to let Shawn in, I had to choose him when he asked me to be his woman. It was a battle I had to struggle with because of all the work God had done in me, I had to start activating the new behaviors, thinking patterns, mindset, and emotions that were given to me over the 6 month process. I didn't fight long, because God knows best, so I swallowed hard and said "OKAY, GOD This is you, I'm walking forward into this, trusting you will guide me, lead me and build our relationship on you!" And guess what He has! Both Shawn and myself have been trusting God and letting Him build our faith through each other and deepen our relationships with God both individually and as a team!

 There is an old saying that for years has drove me buggies when I hear it, "I suppose you want your cake and be able to eat it too?" I mean seriously, what kid on their b-day is given a cake and told no they can't eat it? I don't know of any....So what is the cake for? To eat..duh, so then why do folks say "I suppose you want your cake and be able to eat it too" Hell, if you ain't gonna let me eat the cake get it out of my face....lol I mean yes, there are some life situations that will be like a cake and just add fat to us (meaning they aren't beneficial experiences we really need to partake of) but still, its our choice to eat of that cake if presented. Guess, that is where wisdom comes into play and we choose to activate wisdom or ignorance and pay the consequence later on if we choose to eat of the 'fatty cake'! lol

  So the next time I hear "what I suppose you want your cake and be able to eat it too,"I will say yes, but if I eat of it, it is MY choice. I mean after all cake is to be eaten! Giggle giggle. Now I am going to insert a disclaimer on this whole "have your cake and eat it too thought."

READY:

USE WISDOM WHEN OFFERED YOUR CAKE:

IF YOU ARE DIABETIC DON'T EAT A CAKE FULL OF SUGAR.

IF YOU ARE MARRIED DON'T EAT A CAKE FULL OF ADULTERY.

IF YOU ARE EASILY ANGERED DON'T EAT A CAKE FULL OF HATE.

MY POINT:

KNOW THE INGREDIENTS OF THE CAKE BEFORE YOU EAT IT!

THIS WILL SAVE YOU A LOT OF TROUBLE!

After all wasn't it an apple of deception that Snow White bit into that caused her to "die"? Becareful what you bite into!

Trading my Rags for Royal Garments

I have come to a revelation…I discovered I have Royalty in my DNA, that’s right this ordinary girl is indeed a princess by divine order! I always knew I was more than just a simple girl. I knew I was more than just the average gal in school, but never believed it. I allowed society to title me and I began to live my life based on the title of what society labeled me: Ordinary Girl, despite my internal knowing! And so let me share with you the journey to discovering this remarkable milestone if you will allow me to, it may just open your eyes to the same fact that you too have royal DNA in your veins!

The year is 2,000 and something without the actual sermon notes in front of me I don’t recall the exact year but I’m leaning towards 2002-2003. I was asked in January to prepare a sermon/message to share in September for the women’s ministry at the church I was attending back then. I began to dive into the word to find a topic for the night I had to speak. I began to pray and seek God on what He’d want me to share with the women that night. It was about a week later that I was lead to a book by Priscilla Evans Shirer, and another book. Both books I read in a 2 month time frame and they changed my life forever! I knew after that two months the topic I was to speak to the ladies. I knew it was right from the heart of God for each woman that would be there. I entitled that message “Women, God’s Secret Weapon” and began to put together the message for Septembers women’s meeting. Now this isn’t the first time I had to speak or share a message, I have taught kids ministry, taught in my own peer group but speaking as a woman to other women was a first! I knew I had been given a humbling yet honorable position and I knew it had to be a message of accuracy and right from God to his children. I wasted no time preparing for this message. I dove into the Word of God to find out all I could on Women and How God sees women. I even dug deep into the Bible to find God’s heart on his creation he calls women! I used the two books I had read prior to my preparation as tools to pull out some Biblical meat and truths on the subject. As I was preparing this message, I began to allow myself to be teachable as well. It was in this time that I learned my true identity! An Identity that can only be found in God. One that is so contrary to what society sees me as, an identity that is far greater than I had ever seen myself to bear! It was at that moment that the “switch had been flipped” and I became aware of who I was. Needless to say when September came and it was time to deliver the message God had birthed inside me for His daughters, I was not only prepared but living the revelation! A set up for a great night of internal healing for other women who had not caught (‘til then) the revelation of their Royal DNA!

Moving to the Fall of 2007 to Spring of 2009, time will escape me to go into details (which really aren’t relevant anyway) but I can say this; I went through hell and back. I even got to a point where I had allowed the enemy to pollute my mind and thinking pattern of who I was. I had somehow come to a point where I lost the belief of who I was in God. I had allowed society to name me this or that. I even began living under these names and picking up certain behaviors and traits that these titles (names) would have. I knew deep inside that this was wrong but never the less, I had become what others had spoken me to be; all the while forgetting my true identity of being Royalty with royal DNA in my veins that was placed inside the day of my salvation. See John 1:12-13 and Galatians 3:26-29 for better understanding of what I mean. It was in 2009 that God had brought a very special couple into my life to help me begin to see myself the way God seen me. This couple and I bonded quickly, they have since taken me under their wing as a daughter and have been there for me both in the natural and spiritual areas. They have even helped me both naturally and spiritually raise my daughter with simple biblical truths, teachings, thoughts, and wisdom. I can’t thank them enough for pulling me out of the pit, taking off the “grave clothes/ garments of heaviness” and dressing me in my royal garments once again! Now I know it wasn’t really them…It was God through them. However, they had to be obedient, willing and patient…and for that it was them who God used to bring me out of the pit and into the Palace!

The year is 2010, and I am seated at the right hand of the King! I am dressed in garments of royalty and while I serve the King, I also know my place as a Princess (sitting at the banquet table next to Him). There comes a time when even the Princess puts down the role of servant and dines! I have in the midst of the hell I faced, restoration I went through have a deep, deep, deep rooted confidence of who I am. A confidence that no one can take away, nothing can steal, no one can rob me of. I know who I am in God! I have regained my identity and am not going to be ashamed of it. I realize I don’t deserve it but I have been given it and I will not ever let anyone strip me of my royal garments again! I see myself as a jewel in God’s crown worth far more than rubies, diamonds or gold! I see myself dressed in fine linens adorned with the best like mentioned in Ezekiel 16:9-13. I am fully persuaded that I am in-deed ROYALTY! I, PRINCESS CANDACE RAE HERNDON!

I traded my rags of ashes in for garments of beauty, it wasn’t through anything I did to obtain these royal garments, except believe John 3:16 years ago, confessed with my mouth I am a sinner, repented and excepted Christ into my heart many years ago, it was through Salvation I was adopted into the Royal family! I continued to grow and develop in God which are the methods to maintaining my position as royalty. If you recall from earlier, I never said this road of salvation or life of royalty would be easy…but I have thus far endured the journey and look forward to what more ROYAL inheritances I will receive! For me though, it really isn’t about what I can gain, it goes deeper than that. For me, this royal DNA I have is about identity. Something many folks go years trying to discover. The simple fact that I have discovered who I am, revealed my identity to myself of who I am, is a major milestone in my adventure I call life! Knowing that this identity is the very one I was born to have like mentioned in Jeremiah 29:11 opens endless opportunities for me. Doors will begin to open that with out this identity may never had been opened, which is a very honorable and humble journey all in another chapter I am sure! But for now, I am going to get acquainted with myself as a Princess! I am reminded of that movie where there girl find out she is to be princess and has to go live with her grandma in Genovia where she will be crowned Princess. She has to learn the life of a Princess because for so long she lived as an average ordinary girl. However, her DNA, had a different destiny for her, one of Royalty. She spent many days, weeks, months and maybe even a year having to rid herself of prior behaviors not suitable for a Princess. She had to have an extreme make-over that was both internal and external. I am in that process, God is doing a MAJOR, MAJOR, MAJOR extreme make-over on me and it’s a process that is taking place both internal and externally. This make-over started around November of 2009. The internal is just about done, in fact the other day I finally retired my “drop kicking shoes” and decided it was time to replace them with fitting my feet with the readiness that comes from the Gospel of Peace! So no more drop kicking folks “in love…” While I know that today, September 30th 2010 I am a princess with royal DNA, I do not think of myself in any way more highly as I ought! I understand there are those out there that haven’t experienced this revelation for themselves, so I will continue to walk in humility amongst them, never forgetting where I have come from. I will continue to love them and help them into the steps needed for them to have this same revelation. I traded my crown of thrones for a crown of Glory, I traded my rags of filth for garments of fine linens, my shame for a badge of honor! I am now in position to carry out my destiny and the Will of God for my life in the presence of the King!

I pray that everyone reading this will do the same. They will start a journey of finding out who they are…Find your missing Identity it may be the very piece to the puzzle you’ve been searching for that answers your longing question; Who Am I?

Desk of McDonalds

So for the last 3 nights I have been missing him. I mean really missing him, and no matter how hard I try to surpress or ignore the feelings they get stronger. I get in my Bible to meditate on the Word thinking it will help cast down these thoughts...Not working...I thought the first night it was just the pizza I ate late at night talking to me...but then what's the excuse Saturday night for pizza wasn't eaten that night? And why did I have him on the mind last night. I mean seriously I had a wonderful day at church, great time with my favorite friend and then went to church in the pm. I didnt even think of him at all yesterday til it was time to go to bed. Then to dream about him too? Seriously...I don't get this. It's been almost two years since we even had any type of relationship and almost a year since we have seen each other, so why now, why am I starting to miss him? I have let go, I have healed, I have allowed myself to move on. I can't stand this....ugh...

So I get on Facebook and read this status on someone's page...Shake off the "why's" and the "what if's" of your life and rid yourself of that energy draining confusion. Whatever was - is in the past. Focus, focus, focus on embracing your bright future that is filled with endless possibilities… GO FOR IT!!! So that is going to be my focus today...shaking off this him and what we had...and pushing myself to move forward.
So I pulled out the old year books from my school days and decided to see if I could find any of my former classmates on facebook. I found a lot of them from my year in Alabama. But not so many from my years in Michigan. Don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing! lol I guess I had more friends in Alabama than here in Michigan.

Well I have nothing left to say so for now....

1 Corinthians 6:12

I CAN!

I know I so should be taking this time to job hunt but I don't want to, I have done so all week and now just need time with the internet to catch up on blogging, emails, facebook and even myspace. Yes, I still venture over to http://www.myspace.com/ and log in from time to time. Not as often as I grace facebook with my presences but I do make an effort to stop into myspace. giggle giggle. I know I'm old-school what can I say! 

They say out with the old in with the new. If you want something you have never had, do something you have never done before. Well...I have to say I have come to a season in my life that I am done living for others. I live for God and self. Now I don't mean self as in selfish gain. I am talking about as I hear God and do what he says I'm putting me and my daughter before others. While that may sound selfish, it isn't meant to be. It simply means that I can't live any longer to make others happy while putting me and my daughter in a place of misery.

For me sometimes it takes a drastic change to make me realize one is needed. What works for some won't work for me, and what works for me may not work for others. God meets us all at our level. He speaks to us in ways we understand, so we can obey!

I have to say this new look I have is amazing. I have never felt more sexier and happier! I may keep it going for a while!

Wow, Its been a long time since I have heard folks pray over their food in public. I am sitting again in Mcdonalds and at the table next to me two men sat and before they ate they bowed their heads and began to pray out loud over their food, as I listened in on their prayer I realized they prayed for more than just their food. It was cool. Praying out loud for your food has become a lost art...and its sad...so to hear it take place in the public place is awesome....on a side note the is a girl eating lunch with her man not far from my sight that is rocking some majorly viberant pink hair...Its awesome, I'd take a picture and use it here if I didnt think she'd find it strange that a random stranger is taking a picture of her. She definetly isn't ashamed of what she looks like. And she can pull off the hair color too!

If you sit somewhere long enough you begin to become aware of your surroundings and see things that may often be missed if you don't take time to look around. It amazes me how fast paced society has become. I have to say sitting here for like now 2 and 1/2 hours has been refreshing and enlightening! Sipp'en on the same pop, no its not watered down ( no ice was added) and just taking in my surroundings has been very eye opening. Wow, this worker is interesting...she is washing a table, and complaining cuz someone didnt throw away an unused napkin. She is very upset about this issue. She is talking to herself about it. She is clearly upset....How sad...

Okay before I begin to ramble..oh wait that is the name of this blog....lol I will end it.

So til next time, Remember,  Ordinary people believe only in the possible. Extraordinary people visualize not what is possible or probable, but rather what is impossible. And by visualizing the impossible, they begin to see it as possible.

Blog from McDonalds

So  a lot has taken place since I made my transition fom Davison to Owosso. I have experienced more in 6 months then I have in a year. I am still in love with my new city, people and atmosphere. I am still very cofident that I made the right decision when I chose to relocate my family. I can't say that I have had an easy journey but I can say that I have had the ability and strength to keep on keeping on while in the valley. I have come to understand what Psalms 23 talks about when it says the Shepherd leads me. Despite what I face, God goes before me and takes the fight causing the effects to be less traumatizing for me when I walk through. I have had the winds of life blowing from every angle and while they have been brewing up a storm I understand what it is to walk on the waters with peace. I know what it's like to experience the storms of life and yet still have peace. I have watched the winds blow, situations arise unexpectedly, finances come plumiting down with a sudden crash, yet I feel very little effect from it because God chose to give me peace and calm me rather than the storms. Here I had been expecting him to calm the storm, but He choose to calm me! Its amazing...

I have come to a new understanding and appreciation for Mercy and Grace, which by the way are two seperate things. I have realized that Mercy only comes when we apply the blood to our lives (repent for sins) then God's mercy is able to flow from Heaven to us. Mercy is Gods seperation from his wrath for us. Mercy is God not doing what we do deserve. Grace is God doing what we don't deserve!

I am coming into my Canaan! I was set free from bondage and walked the wilderness and now am finding my steps leading to my spiritual Canaan. I can't say it's been a delightful journey but I am learning to walk it out with no complaints...God is my cloud by day and pillar of fire at night. He is my provider, refuge, defender and guide. 

On a not so spiritual side, my 6 months of not dating is over and while I am still single, and have many guys flocking to me, I am not ready to dive right into the dating scene. I am taking my time to evaluate each canidate and narrow out the weeds. I do not want the wrong man. I have taken time to evaluate what I do want and won't settle for anything or anyone less than I deserve. I am trusting God and keeping myself postioned in Him til the man God has for me finds me!

Well this chapter from McDonalds is going to have to come to a wrap. I can't focus on blogging with the large group of elderly folks cackling away just a few tables over. I swear there must be like 30 of them. giggle giggle...

so til next time, Know that God is who he says he is and will do what He says he will!