Go-Go Boots

The other day I started typing a blog on Family Dynamics and I never posted it because like every parent who I am sure tries to blog with kids around I got side tracked! lol

So I decided to try and blog it again....

I was snuggled in bed the other day when I began thinking about Family Dynamics and what makes a family a family...I mean yeah society says a mom and a dad start the process but I am talking deeper than that...I mean think about it, not all families have both parents living in the home, so does that mean those people aren't a family? I know I have heard of disfunctional families, but I am not refering to that...I am talking about what makes a family a family? In today's society there are single parent homes called families, then there are grandparents raising grandchildren and they are called families...And I know of some folks who live what society calls an alternative lifestyle and have children and they are called families...so again I will ask what makes these groups of people families?

Is it the love they hold inside for each other? Is it that they share the same DNA? Is it that they live in the same house? Can claim each other on taxes (well the adult that is can claim the kids)? Or does it go deeper than that? Just something to think about when you see or are around those you call family. There was more thought on this topic but between Friday night and today it was lost somewhere in sleep land! lol

So Saturday I went to lunch with a friend I hadn't seen in over 8 years and it was a great time...We had a great time chatting and catching up....So much that we have missed in each other's lives that we decided to start hanging out more regularly....She lives only 45 minutes from me and well the drive isn't bad so no excuses! lol

Okay so on to a new topic one that was brought up several times this weekend with several different folks in my circle of life.....The Ten Commandments...but before you stop reading here cuz you think it may become a religious blog keep reading...cuz the conversations didnt go that way...lol It started with something on tv I saw and it sparked the thought wow they just committed like 8 of the 10 commandments, which then got me thinking how many have I violated? So I asked my roommate the question..." how many of the 10 commandments have you broken?" we started trying to count....lol and we decided to stop since we don't live under the old law....and Mercy and Grace along with the death of Christ and the shedding of his blood have allowed us to live in the new testimanent! So we laughed and laughed..then the other night last night to be exact the topic came up again with a male friend and we again decided to again stop trying to figure it out because while they are good things to live by, they aren't needed today! Now that doesn't mean I will go out and murder, all though I wanted to this weekend, lol just kidding. Murder isn't something that I am fond of hence why I don't even like the shows like csi or law and order anymore...
It is cold, I opened the blinds today and was greeted with the sight of a rainy day...yuck oh well could be worse could of been snow!
Well I think I have ran out of random topics now that Barney has invaded the tv and is dancing and singing around causing me to become distracted! lol
*Chow*

I Shave My Legs!

Ladies and Gentlemen, Boys and Girls, Here are the lyrics you all have been waiting for.....lol

I have posted them to share!

I Shaved My Legs!

I gotta new life
You would hardly recognize me I’m so glad
I looked down and seen my legs ooh
Why didn’t I see
Before now I was hairy
Ooo need a razor, razor

I shaved my legs, they were oh so hairy, I shaved my legs
I couldn’t take it they were beyond braiding
I shaved my legs, they were oh so hairy, I shaved my legs
Now they are smooth and silky, no more stubble I look sexy

Under running water
I used my razor it felt so nice, nice
How could I let it go so long
I will take pride
and shave my legs again
oh smooth and silky

I shaved my legs, they were oh so hairy, I shaved my legs
I couldn’t take it they were beyond braiding
I shaved my legs, they were oh so hairy, I shaved my legs
Now they are smooth and silky, no more stubble I look sexy

I shaved my legs, I shaved my legs, I shaved my legs





Hope you all enjoyed the good laugh! Hey Ace of Base had an easy beat to recreate! lol I have way too much time on my hands, however the song is very catchy beware you may find that it got stuck in your head and you start singing it randomly when you least expect it like my room mates daughter did yesterday! lol


BY THE WAY LET THE JOY OF THE LORD BE YOUR STRENGTH!

It's Raining, It's Pouring I'm Not Snoring, But I am Old

So it's been one of those days where I have zero self confidence, feel fat, am tired, so not motivated to do anything, just want to crawl up in bed and sleep the day away, depressed, moody, want to be left alone, and yet I am reminded that I have a child to look after, I have to provide for my family (go to work), keep pushing myself even if I no energy, I have to keep positive or else I will slip away into the dark hole that eats people alive!

I know why am I sharing this, because I believe we all have days where we are forced to elivate ourselves to a level past feeling so that our flesh doesn't rob us of our spiritual blesing! I had to do that today...and while I found my refeshing not so much in the word of God but in a computer game, I have to say that I was indeed refreshed...Not everything we do has to be so spiritual that it makes us become a space cadet. What I needed wasn't a spirtual boost as much as a physical boost. Yeah sure, I have been going to the gym, working, and being active with my daughter but sometimes it goes deeper than that physically.

Saturday night I went bowling and had a blast, the person I went with opened my eyes to somethings while we chatted. Let's just say the conversation after bowling while we drove around gave me another one of what I call "self examination" times....I realized why I am so hesitant to enter a new relationship or try to make a relationship with one of the guys already in my life....I look forward to more bowling times. Despite the competive bowling this person did I was indeed having fun! lol

I went today to look for a halloween costume for me and my daughter. I know we don't so much celebrate as we do enjoy dressing up. I decided I am going to go biker, goth, emo. I bought a few accesories, I have the wigs already, I just need the tattoos and piercings! Which I will get before the the 31st. As far as my little one, I have a few ideas in mind I just need to see which one she likes the best!

I know some of you are reading this and have already condemned me for even entertaining the idea of halloween but get over it.....show me in the Bible where it is wrong to dress up and have a fun time.....I know shun the whole appearance of evil....but really what is evil about dressing up in costumes that are G-RATED???

anyway, enough rambling, I am off to spend time with little ma'ma since she just got home from gymnastics!

*chow*

Go Grease Lighting

I hear your voice, I see you moving, yet I want more, I feel your gentle touch, I smell your presence, yet I want more, I have tasted and know you are good! Lord, I am so greatful that you call me your daughter, I know there are times where I mess up or even fall short of your expectations but I know that you are forgiving and that you are my father and my friend. I have experienced many sides of you and yet I want more. I know that may be a selfish request, but I know I am not satisfied, take me to the next level I will follow. See into me, so I can see into you. I want to be closer to you than I have ever been, I want to move with you, I want to be one in you. Grant me the desires of my heart oh God. From this request to the many petitions I have laid at your feet when I come to you with a heart full of heaviness.
Thank you my Heavenly Father, My closest Friend. What a wonderful day you have planned for me this day! You are so amazing, I am greatful for who you are and what you do in my life. You spoil me day to day and you kiss me every time I walk out that door as the sun shines down on my cheek! I have grown so much in these last years, and despite what I have faced I have come out stronger! Lord you are so wonderful. I love you so much. Thank you for allowing me to come into "sonship" with you....I know where I'd be without you and I don't ever want to go back there. Thank you for allowing Mercy and Grace to be my friends. Thank you for the blood that covers me and washes me clean. Thank you for your love, joy and kindness. Thank You for being all that I need. Thank you for being my redeemer, friend, savior, healer, lover and so much more...My provider, My comfort, My strong tower, My shield, My victory, my manna, the lifter of my head when I am down.

Thank you for your Glory, for being my judge, my advocate, my defense, my morning star, My Jesus, my river. There are so many things that you have been to me, thank you....I have a heart of gradittude and want you to know. You are a forever and lasting God!

My heart is full

but I pull on you more

as I walk through the door

you talk to me telling me of your ways

so let it be known that all of my days

I will serve you oh God

I never want to part from you!

It's in your presence where I can come

It's at your feet that I bring my sacrifice

It's in your arms I know I am sheltered

It's in your voice I know I am being corrected

It's in your word that I am guided

It's in your hand I am being rewarded

It's in YOU!

When I walk in your ways,

I find unmeritted favor,

All sin is erased,

Glory crowns my head,

I see more sides of you,

Mercy and Grace walk before me,

I am covered in you,

Your Ways oh God are what I strive to walk in.

The Dreamer Dreams Again

I'm sitting here listening to my profile song play list and the song Moving Forward is on and it really comforts my spirit to know that God will make all things new for me If I follow Him forward....Here are the lyrics so you get a better idea as to why this blog comforts me…

Moving Forward
By: Free Chapel

I'm not going back

I'm moving ahead

I'm here to declare

In You, old things are made new

Surrender my life to Christ

I'm moving moving forward

What a moment

You have brought me to

Such a freedom

I have found in You, what a healer

You make all things new

Yeah, yeah, yeah

You have risen

With all power in Your Hands

You have given me

A second chance, Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah

You make all things new

You make all things new

I will follow You forward


Which is confirmation that I am indeed taking the steps to do just that....I had a great blog all typed out this morning before work and when I went to hit preview it disappeared....so I am back at square one with blogging for the day....I have so much on my mind that I can't even begin to find a place to reveal it to you my readers so I won't try....but what I will reveal is that I am more confident than ever that this move that will soon be taking place in my life is God. I drove to work today and began looking around as I drove and realized that it is time for me to leave and plant my family (me and Ami) in a place where we will grow, develop and be used by God. I can't allow myself to be held back any longer....and if I stay here I will be.....I recently am reminded of a prophecy that was released over me that I was indeed moving forward and that the enemy is trying to convince me that I am taking steps backwards but those are lies...I am indeed moving forward...so I have to believe that this desire to move and relocate my family is indeed the next step in moving forward into what God has for me.....I made some phone calls today to start the process for looking into housing for me and Amariah...I will have the information and applications with-in the upcoming week in my hands. I also have started looking online for childcare and schooling options for the two of us. In some ways this is scary and fear could cause me to become paralyzed but I refuse to allow fear to grip me when I have so much confidence and trust in God!

It was prophesied over me last year that 2009 would be my year and so far I haven't made any great strides. Sure there have been some acceleration forward but nothing dramatic like I know God has for me...I also know that its the 9th month in the year and that means only 3 more and the year will be over, so I have to activate this prophecy and allow myself to be positioned so that the prophecy can and will be fulfilled!

I was sitting here early this morning blogging and my mind began to recount the time when I worked for Foot Locker and I had a manager who was considering making a drastic move from Michigan to California and I remember him being in the stock room one day with a map looking at the distance between Michigan and California and I recall a short yet powerful conversation we had that day as I came in the stock room to get a pair of shoes for a customer.....I recall making the comment "Ya know, no matter how far you go you can't run from God. He loves you and He will won't let you run." My boss looked at me as if he'd seen a ghost and replied "what makes you think I am running?" I simply replied "You can fool me if you want, but God knows all and you can't fool Him." and I turned around and left to attend to the customer. As I was reminded of this I began to think of a friend of mine who recently moved and can't help but wonder if both this friend and my boss might have been attempting the same thing...Running from God instead of towards Him. So you can see why I am so willing to seek God fully on this move; what may appear to be a God thing could be nothing but a good thing when the God thing is just a few more steps to be walked out where I am right now....
My baby just came home....I haven't seen her in a few days...she decided at age 4 to go have a sleep over with granny and granny nanny and not come home until today. lol she just walked in the door and did she have many stories to tell me....lol I missed her these last few days. She's trying to snuggle me while I am typing this blog...so perhaps I should get off here and return when I can blog with fewer distractions…
Okay so I am back and decided to share something that I wrote a while back with you my lovely readers.

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It’s in the valley I know you have my back,

It’s on the mountain top where you reveal yourself to me,

It’s in the midnight hour I hear you calling,

It’s in the day when I see you moving,

It’s everyday when I long to be,

In your embrace....

oh....oh....oh......

Your so amazing to me,

How you never change....

Even as the seasons come and go,

You remain oh you remain the same......

That’s why I call you my amazing love,

oh...oh.....oh.....my amazing love,

how you sweep me off my feet,

dry my tears that drip down my cheek,

bring a smile to my heart in the darkest hour,

Forever I’m amazed at your grace.....

oh...oh....oh....

Amazing Grace, oh how sweet the sound,

when I think of how you saved me,

I was a wretch,

oh a mess,

without you,

but then you came and cleansed me....

turned my life around......with your amazing grace.

and that is why I’ll sing of my love for you,

oh...oh....oh...oh.......

Cuz your a God who is always near,

always loving,

never willing to give up,

So let it be known,

You are faithful til the end.....

Jehovah you are The great I am....

and that is why I sing....my song!

Cuz when I stumble and fall,

you make it to where I can fly,

broken I come,

Healed I leave,

when with you.....

oh...oh...oh....

When others have left me in the dark,

You bring the light to lead the way,

I’m so in love with you,

that is why I sing,

though its not a song you require,

I bring you so much more....

but I start with my song....

Cuz your so amazing my love!

I love writing love songs to God! He is the one person I can count on that will never fail me!
I started this blog hours ago and am just now finishing it.....
*CHOW*

----the picture used is of my mom's tattoo. I felt it portrays exactly what my blog is speaking in art form!----

2009 Life Lessons I Learned

So you're probally asking what's new, what has been going on in my world? Well, I have indeed learned a few lessons in life. But as a wise mentor recently said "use judgement when posting blogs or things in cyber world." So after taking that wisdom in I am choosing to apply it and share these few thoughts with you from myself examination/detox process that is helping me become more like Christ.

I've learned so far this year that life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, title you hold, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have a lot of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that.
But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness and compassion. It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are not for what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life's about.

Don't get me wrong these lesson's weren't the easiest to learn..The journey I had to take to learn them was messy, long, desolate, barren and sometimes scary, but in the end I gained wisdom that I will forever cherish. And I have a trust in God that it will ALL work out (including my future)!

I am learning that the journey of where I once was and who I am now becoming is where my dancing in life has really been taking place!

funny how when I take the time to reach deep within to blog I find the creativity at it's finest.

Amazing Love How Great the Exchange

A lost young petal once was I,
A wondering soul seeking to fulfill,
The dream you desired for me to follow,
So I follow you daring to believe,
I return by your side,
With a new heart in hand,
It's like a bright fire dancing,
To the slow music turning.
My heart as smooth as ivory,
Hasn't turned to lonely, sulfur
Because I chose that day to,
give my heart to you,
In exchange you gave me Love,
Lord, I just want to say love you!


I learned that I was born with wings so I refuse to crawl through life any longer. I'm spreeding my wings and flying! And those who choose to try and clip my wings, well I will assume they aren't my friends and I will bid them a bitter sweet fairwell/goodbye.

I've learned to face my fears and as I do they no longer haunt me. I've learned to keep my head when all around me are loosing theirs and blaming it on me. I have learned to trust me when all men doubt me while they are making an allowance for their doubting. I've learned to wait while not being tired of waiting. I've learned what it's like to be lied to and about but not deal with the lies all the while they hate me I choose to not give into the hating. I've learned to turn the other cheek while not being vengful to those who do me harm. I've learned to meet triumph and disaster in the same manner (head held high). I've learned that I can bear to hear the truth spoken even if other's twist it with knives to make a trap for fools. I've learned to watch the things I have given my life for become broken, stomped on with worn out tools all because others have given up on their dreams. I have learned to talk amongst the crowd while keeping my virtue. I've learned to guard my heart so that neither foes nor friends can hurt me.

okay so while writing this I had to stop because strange noises were coming from down the hall..while investigating it I discovered the roomies caged critter was the guilty noise maker....however that wasn't what the noises sounded like...so as my heart rate lowers and I focus back to blogging I just want to say that this past year has been a very unique experience but yet one that has had much impact and growth!

I learned that my turning point in this process of growing up was when I was able to discover my core strength within me that survives all hurt. I discovered that while some only have one strength, I have 3 that go hand in hand....but I won't be like sampson and tell you, I may wear wigs but I don't want a hair cut that bad! lol

I guess for me, the toughest lesson I had to learn this year, has been learning to grow while apart. There have been many folks that (for whatever reason) have left my side in this journey called life. I don't blame them, hold it against them, or even have ill feelings towards them. I simply have realized that like myself they need to grow and if the only way they can grow is to walk their path alone while I walk mine than so be it. I do believe that for some our paths will re-unite at the next cross road but for some the bitter sweet seperation was just that bitter sweet and I wish you all the success and happiness in your life. But as for me, I refused to become content thus I had to continue on my way to growing into who I am today.
And while I have been growing there have been some new folks that have come from the shadows to walk with me. Some who I question, others who I know are sincere, never-the-less I know I am not alone! No matter what the natural eye may see I know God is always with me!

So its nearly 4 am and I have been blogging for almost an hour if not longer and I need to head to bed, but as I do remember this.....

Everyone of us has lessons in life to learn...are you taking the time to learn them? Or are you so busy doing that you miss the wisdom that is learned by embracing the lesson and walking it out with the intent of applying it to your life to make you a better person....

"NO PERSON IS PERFECT, HENCE WHY THE MIRROR WAS INVENTED, EXAMINE YOUR FLAWS."

The Art of Mastering Daily Principles

Ever face a situation that seemed to swallow you whole everytime you starred it in the face; No matter how strong you were the issue constantly kept defeating you instead of you defeating it! I have and it wasn't til recently I began to find out just what was missing so that I had the victory rather than getting defeated......
For example: You have been delivered from a specific issue however you find yourself constantly in situations where your behavior is constantly conterdicts the fact that you were delivered. Leaving you feeling many mixed emotions or even questioning your deliverance?

Two words.......



Self Discipline

You see behavior is a trained action that develops over time, and if not controlled or even disciplined in some cases your behavior will conterdict the words from your mouth and thoughts in your heart. Self Discipline is something one must constantly participate in so that the behaviors you portray are those that are Christ like.

According to the Webster's Dictionary the word Discipline states that the word is an action word and it means

"To train or develop by teaching and by control; training which corrects, molds, or perfects the mental faculties or moral character."

So as one can see self discipline is a vital thing for us Christians to participate in on a daily basis!

God bless and Until Next Time.....Work on mastering self discipline!

Experiences Learned Through Death While Living

So I am home after my journey to Alabama for the funeral of my grandpa. Amariah was a good little trooper. She road so well for a 2 1/2 year old who might I add is potty training...We did have to stop and stay over both going and coming home but all in all the trip went rather educational!
Yeah I said educational....I can't say anything else about it because well you can't say that a funeral went well, or good....chuckles....so let me just say that it was an educational experience!
Grandpa looked himself so that helped me stay somewhat strong. My family however wasn't so strong. Dad broke down, and my aunt did as well....and both times I choked up and did my best to hold in the tears. Having my daughter there with me through the process was a bit relieving...her innocent sense of humor was just what we all needed to help balance the moment of mourning....
So what did I learn you ask....I know your sitting in suspense holding the edge of your chair reading this so let me prolong no more.....

I learned that you can't pick your family...Even in adoption parents are the ones to choose.....who they will adopt...Even in the Spiritual sense God is the one who asigns the parents. Spiritual Fathers and Mothers of the Faith that will benefit us in every avenue of our life. And no matter what goes wrong, or how many times we disagree or agree or even have to work out differences they are still our parents and we can't just walk away from that......Well I guess one could if they have a problem with submission....or even rebellion....but even in the Bible there is a story of the prodical son coming home!
I also learned that no matter what experience you face or burden you carry light or heavy something happens in the supernatural when you worship your way through the moment. For me the whole process of grieving was a lot easier when my spirit man was in a state of worship. I determined in my mind that I was going to make it through and the only way I knew to do so was to begin to worship.

The old saying "death has no sting" is so true when you carry a spirit of worship while going through the process of letting go of a loved one to death in the natural but life in the eternal realm. There is something to be said when you praise your way through the storm......what ever that storm maybe....

Isaiah 9:6 "For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given....and his name shall be called The Prince of Peace."

When we go through the process of grieving for a loved one who has left this earth we have a sure promise that God will be with us and will be our peace through the journey.



So as we worship we begin to offer up a sacrifice that is pleasing to God so that he decends from the heavens and becomes our very present state of help in time of need. So remember the next time you go through something..to
LIFT UP YOUR HANDS, VOICE AND HEART AND RELEASE YOUR WORSHIP!

And watch God show up in a way that will lift the heavy burden and replace it with a lighter more joyful agenda!
God is love, light and much more. He is our understanding and all that seems dark and difficult will become clear to us as we depend upon Him, who is our understanding! The soul that is linked to God begins to understand and will go on to clearer understanding throughout the countless ages. Proverbs 8:14

A Day Like No Other

So I woke up this morning as if it were just another day.....tried to hit the snooze button..only to find myself having the desire to get up and spend time with God. So I layed in my bed praying and then Ami woke up..Got her out of her bed, she got on the potty herself, then came into my room and watched 2 cartoons while I was in the shower. I got dressed as I do every morning but something was very different today...unlike any other day. I checked my phone to see the time and discovered I had 2 missed calls....One being my family in Alabama, the other being work. I got Ami dressed and fixed her breakfast....We continued our routine and now here I am sitting typing this blog waiting to go to work.

So what is different you ask? Well, I woke up with a song in my heart, A smile on my face and a Spirit of peace. NO heavy burdens to carry today, NO worries about "joe" or the whole ordeal there, NO frustration......Only a song in my heart, a hop skip and jump in my feet and a smile that "EVERY THING IS GOING TO BE ALL RIGHT."

The verse in the Bible that goes something like this has been on the forfront of my spirit, mind and heart "Your Faith has made you Every bit Whole."

Well...I realized that today is not just another day its a day that was destined for me to walk into..and what I do today as well as what I don't do today but know to do will be recorded in the Heavens and I will be judged on...So I will live everyday from now on saying and doing that which God has instructed me to do or stay away from.....

How can some get away with what I am convicted on? has been a question for several months I have been asking myself..and yesterday I was given the answer... They have become disconnected with the Holy Spirit...they think they have relationship with him, however, all they have are justifications, lies and denial...they have forgotten the truth to the point they have pushed the Holy Spirit right out of their life. Don't they know that with-out the Holy Spirit in your life, there is no Power.

Well Its time to get back to a place of repentance, concecration, holiness and of course living in the Power of the Holy Spirit.

Later Gattors.....

Well off to see what awaits me at work! So that I can pour out all that God has placed with-in me for these little kids and of course my co-workers!





There comes a point in our life when we say enough is enough and take a stand despite who rejects us or who embraces us....I have learned over the last few months that there will always be people in this life who will hate me. And ya know what...I don't care anymore, my first priority isn't to be liked it's to obey God.

Somewhere in the last oh.....5 months I have lost my reverant fear for God. Only because I was desperately looking for a certain someone's approval. However, in the last few weeks (month to be exact) I have come away from this individual and began to seek God more and more, that I have once again re-gained the reverant fear for God. I am no longer allowing my past behaviors to dictate me just for the sake of this one person...I am not a puppet that dances when this one pulls the strings. I will no longer care what this one thinks, If this one can't help me fulfill the call God has on my life, then I will cut the cord and let them go. I can't be held back any longer.

I have realized that these behaviors are directly birthed from the fear of rejection and I AM CHOOSING TO PUSH............PUSH PAST THIS FEELING...

Starve the flesh and feed the spirit.

Besides if I truly prefere this one over me, then I will no longer allow them to feed their addiction with me, or help feed their addiction. I will instead speak the truth in love and hold them accountable. Yeah I realize I will be hated but I don't care anymore...I will use my stubborn-ness for the good rather than the bad.

well off to see the wizard the wonderful wizard of oz.......known as work!

"The road to success is not straight.There is a curve called failure, a loop called confusion, speed bumps called friends, red lights called enemies, caution lights called family.You will have flats called jobs.but, if you have a spare called determination you can make it through!"

Freedom Will Always Have a Price Attached

I have come into encounter with several folks with in the last 3 months that are in a valley of decision being faced with the challenge of choosing God's Will or Free Will. And while I can only sit back and pray and seek God bringing the petition of Let your Will be Done oh God in their life it does cause my heart to ache while watching them sway in the balance with these issues weighing so heavy with-in them.... I guess as an intercessor you see more than you bargain for when activating in your grace and call. Its hard at times to sift through it and place it where it needs to go with out at times taking it to heart.Well that is what I have found a time or 2.

Last night, was one of those moments in time that for once I would of loved not to be graced to be an intercessor or even step farther prophetic. Because I was having a great time with a special person in my life..when a bomb shell of news went off while talking and it really made my spirit man come alive yet at the same time break my heart.....I did my very best to allow the spirit man to be activated and speak forcing my heart to be silent....because if its one thing I know..in moments like that is when God tends to use me the best...to speak what needs to be spoken....and I only pray that my words were those of my Heavenly Fathers and they penitrated the heart of the one I was with during this time....because I know all to well what lays ahead...I see the fork in the road for this one while looking to the left I see what God has, and then to the right I see the entrapment and life of destruction the devil has....but itsn't my road to choose to walk, and that is what hurts....I can only Pray that this one follows GOD'S VOICE and WILL RATHER THAN FREE WILL...and chooses the path God has ORDAINED BEFORE TIME FOR THIS ONE.

I have for some time now been meditating on the issue of free will and the price one pays to follow their free will rather than the will of God set before them for their life. While at the time free will doesn't appear to be costing you a dime, in the end the price will be death. Read Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord."

And then I thought about the price one pays when they serve God and start trying to daily hang out with those who aren't serving God....there is a difference between a circle of close friends and a circle of those you are to minister to....Read 1 Corinthians 15:33-34 "Do not be misled, Bad company corrupts good character. Come back to your senses as you ought, and STOP sinning, fror there are some who are ignorant of God."

But the main place I want to zero in on tonight is found in

Provebs 14:12... "There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death."

The book of Proverbs frequently talks about life and death. Wise living (choosing Gods will over free will) tends to make you live longer, while foolish living (living out of free will) pushes you into an early grave. If you take this observation at face value, you'll have a problem. Plenty of people who live foolishly (in free will) survive into old age, but the concept of life and death in proverbs is talking much deeper than a physical survival...Its talking about the spiritual death as well as physical. By life (choosing God's will) the book of Proverbs means "this is real living" full of peace and joy and wisdom. By death (choosing free will) means a spiritual decay as well as physical.

A person who chooses to walk in free will may as well be labled dead spiritually and plan their own funeral for the physical because its a matter of time before the sin catches them and kills them. Choices that seem perfectly right may end up destroying you, That is precisely why people need to cultivate wisdom and follow the Will of God for their life rather than walk in free will. What looks good may not always be good. "Everything is permissible for me, but not everything is benificial." 1 Corinthians 6:12

Galatians 5: 16-18 " So I say to you Live by the Spirit and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit and the Spirit contrary to the sinful nature. They conflict with each other, so that you don't do what you want. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law."

This means that when walking God's Will for your life you will not be forced to live in bondage but you will walk free! Free Will leads to bondage which will lead to death.

Ephesians 4:22-24 " You were taught with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self (following free will), which is being corrupted by its decietful desires, to be made new in attitude of your minds (a renewed mind) and to put on your new self (Gods Will) created to be like God in true Righteousness and Holiness."

So choose ye this day whom you will serve. As for me and my House we WILL serve the Lord!



Ecclesiastes 11:5 "As you do not know the path of the wind or how the body is formed in your mothers womb so you cannot understand the work of God the Maker of all things."

Don't sit on the fence, cuz when the wind blows you will fall off forcing you to land on a side that may cause you to pay the ultimate price.....eternal damnation of your soul!

Father, I pray that those reading this that are in a valley of decision will begin to experience you in their life like never before...begin father to speak to them, reveal to them and lead them into the truth, your will...lead them out of destruction into everlasting joys....Father let them have a life changing encounter right now that will change the course of their steps NOW.....I take authority over every evil scheme, plot and trick that the enemy has set out to take out the voices of this generation...SATAN, YOU HAVE NO POWER....THEY ARE CHILDREN OF THE MOST HIGH GOD.....LET ME REMIND YOU...YOU HAVE LOST....YOU ARE DEFEATED....I command every buffeting spirit that is causing these folks to walk staggering in the darkness like blind men to loose your hold now on them...and I command you to go into the dry and distant place now..never to return to them.....Now father I loose the angels of heaven to be assigned this night to them...guarding them, protecting them, ministering to them and even speaking and help leading them into all that you have for them.....HOLY SPIRIT GO NOW.....AND DO WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN SENT TO DO IN THEIR LIFE....for your glory and honor oh God......Amen....

Remember:

He that Started a GOOD WORK In You IS FAITHFUL To COMPLETE It....

Stay The Course

RENEW YOUR MIND DAILY In The WORD OF GOD

BEGIN TO SELF DISCIPLINE YOURSELF

ABSTAIN FROM THE VERY APPEARANCE OF EVIL AND WALK IN THE WILL OF GOD FOR YOUR LIFE...